It has been an odd few months for me.
In terms of PhD life, it has been a challenge to balance out studying for background meteorology modules whilst reading around the background of my own research project matter, whilst trying to establish with my supervisors whereabouts on my project the cameralens should focus on, whilst getting to grips with ever cumbersome programming. But also attempting to give myself enough sleep and nourish myself adequately whilst not getting utterly bummed out by the current state of geopolitics and the sheer urgency of global warming action whilst making sure I still make some friends and not forget my home friends and family or my hobbies… Hello, blogosphere my old friend.
I have been meaning to write something for a while now. Everytime I begin a new draft post though, I take a step back and think, “Is anyone even going to read this crap? Is anyone even going to care?”. Admittedly, I often find myself doubting myself, sometimes doubting my potential to contribute to the scienific community at this early stage of my young life. It’s not enthusiasm or thirst for knowledge that I lack (I have bags and bags of the stuff!) – rather, it’s a sprinkling of self-confidence that I am missing. I am surrounded by people who know so much more than I do about not only my subject matter, but also about everything else.
This is where I swing this post around.
This is where I sit down and think hard. I think instead, “These people know so much more than me! Wow, I want to be like them!“. Everyone around me exudes some form of role-model aura and I must recognise this purely in a positive, inspirational light rather than allow it to intimidate me. I have a lot to learn, but I can learn a lot from those I am blessed to be surrounded by and have in my life. This is where I am no longer talking about academia, but also life in general. Comparing yourself to other people is apparently a proven pathway to hell (no citation available, except for personal experience and old wives’ tales). So if your feelings about your place within a) your own professional circles, or b) the world, resemble my feelings: throw your hands up in the air and just have a think about how far you have come and all the hard work that got you here in the first place.
Happy 2017 🙂